Does she believe?

I believe… When she is not with me there are no stars in the sky.
I believe… The way back to her will feel a little far.
I’ll carry all those memories deep inside me.
I’ll feel pain, it’ll make tears fall.
When I won’t cry she will leave me
With no change and no tears.
Someday again the tears will come around
She knows it
I’ll believe that she is waiting.
I do it for her.
I believe. It’ll hurt me to see, she can’t cry.
I believe. My tears will fall, she should turn back to me again.
Again I’ll glimpse she comes into my sight
And it’ll make my tears fall.
When I won’t cry she will leave me
With no change and no tears.
Someday again the tears will come around
She knows it.
I’ll believe that she is waiting.
I do it for her.
Before I knew her, the world was dazzling.
From that sky I got left with tears.
I will care for that person.
She is the only reason.
To me the wait gives me enough happiness.
Love is the only reason.
As days pass by,
If she forgets the way, I’ll be waiting
I do it for her.

(sebuah lirik, saat tak bisa tidur, Shubuh, 29 Desember 2007, disaat terjadi perbedaan waktu antara aku dan dia)

Something that she doesn't know about.

Every night when I would go to sleep.
I couldn’t stop dreaming about her.
Even though I don’t really know her.
I’m waiting for the moment I can show her about my words.
I was watching her went for several times.
I was watching her passed me by.
It’s real love that she doesn’t know about.
I knew I had to come up and approach her.
Coz I really gotta let her knows.
I got a lot of love I wanna show her.
I need her love.
She’s the one that I want and no one can take.
I’m never gonna let her slips away again.
Every now and then when I watch her.
I wish that I could tell her that I want her
But now.. I just can wait and be patient.

Bandung, 29 Des ‘07, jam 01.50, saat dia ada di jauh sana.

Whose?

I am trying to understand her
I would like to know both
What she should hear
For that much she wants to believe
I am afraid of this silence
And the gap between us
From these statements of absence
Who put me in the knee
I lost my reason
Let me to the abandonment
I look back
I see a tear sinking
I lost my benchmarks
The color of my soul
Tell me where is my life
If she is “far” from here?

Love is what?

It’s like fairy tale when you love someone who doesn’t know exactly what your true feeling. May be you don’t talk to her yet, or maybe you have some reasons too keep your feeling unsaid.

But sometimes, action talks louder than words. How hard you try to hide it, your action never lies. Your action often tell to the world that you love her. Although, maybe she doesn’t notice yet that it is love.
Now I’m asking you? Do you regret about that?
When she doesn’t know your true feeling?
When she doesn’t give you same treatment?

If your answer is yes, I think that is not love, but just an obsession to get her.

“Love is not a matter of take and give, but love is only a matter of Giving, without taking anything..”